Silence Therapy

I am not talking to Imon for 4 days now. It is hard on me too. But I really don't want to deal with his temper and how he might snap and hurt my feelings. I am just not willing to go there now or in the future if possible. I am not hating him, or angry at him, that is not my nature. It is taking my energy if I want to hold onto that anger or hatred. I find it more comforting in my heart to forgive him and just love him. But my brain tells me, that is what I have been doing all these times, I forgive him too early, and he never really gets the point how he had been rude to me, in plain terms, he is never learning his lesson, or never realizing that he is hurting our relationship. I am not letting him understand. So, my brain tells me to be patient and give him time to understand how much his words hurt me. I am not expecting him to rise above his short temper and completely comprehend this, but hoping he would get enough time to contemplate how he feels about me and realize what is more important to him. maybe decide on which one he can live without, his ego or me. Not expecting him to make a decision or act on it, but just rather put the thought in his head. In the least, he would know that I have feelings too and he has hurt them deeply enough for me to go this crazy length that I have never gone before.

Now he already said sorry and tried to apologize. I know he is sorry, but it is like the first harmonics of his temper subsided for him to come to this.. Now I feel he is angry again.. but less and prolonged, that is the third harmonics.. It'll also subside and then will come the fifth one.. So hopefully by Friday he'll get enough time to go through all levels of his anger and be more come and down and close to his core DC level feelings towards me. I am going to cook him a very nice meal and wait for him at home. Not going to pick him up at the airport either. He will have to come to me.. And if he is still angry and won't come home, I'll have food for myself. :P


P.S: He watched a movie called " What women want" in the last couple days.. LOL