Picking up where I left off
What I feel is that I had not been myself for last 2-3 years. I was lost wandering around trying to get back to the road that I want to travel on. Only lately with the kido inside me, I feel like I am finding myself back. It has been so long that I almost forgot who I am as a person, what are my strengths and characteristics and was trying desperately to get back to some functioning state that is somewhat acceptable to me. In other words I was hating what I had become. It was not me and I didn't like her. Now as I think how I want to raise my boy, I am also finding how I want to be, where I want to be. Thank you my little man.
A few things I would like to do career-wise from now on. I think I have found quite a comfort zone for working at the moment. With this peace of mind I can invest in building towards my goal. I want to keep daily record of things as I am working on them. But I also want to send out a monthly to my manager to tell him about it, so he also knows when to recognize my good works. I want to be excited about working on something and also excited about announcing it to everyone. That is me, I kinda like to boast but in a humble fashion. To do this the easy thing would be start drafting the monthly email beginning of month and add to it every time I accomplish something. The send it out end of the month. Another monthly ritual I want to build for myself is to keep updating my resume regularly with accomplishments and skills. Something that you want to be proud of sharing with people.
On the home front, I feel like I am afraid of people coming over to my house because I keep it so messy. I don't like the afraid feeling. I basically don't like anything that makes me feel guilty or incompetent. So, I want to have minimal house keeping done at house so I am not scared of people showing up at my house and finding it smelly/ dirty. I want to maintain a minimum standard of living in the house for the kido. Basic Cleanliness is the only thing that is important for the house. I should keep things in order so I can tell kido to maintain that order and standard. Fancy stuff comes after the basics.
I feel positive, I feel braking out of depression, and I feel a new horizon lighting up and lets keep moving towards that goal. More power to me. :D
A few things I would like to do career-wise from now on. I think I have found quite a comfort zone for working at the moment. With this peace of mind I can invest in building towards my goal. I want to keep daily record of things as I am working on them. But I also want to send out a monthly to my manager to tell him about it, so he also knows when to recognize my good works. I want to be excited about working on something and also excited about announcing it to everyone. That is me, I kinda like to boast but in a humble fashion. To do this the easy thing would be start drafting the monthly email beginning of month and add to it every time I accomplish something. The send it out end of the month. Another monthly ritual I want to build for myself is to keep updating my resume regularly with accomplishments and skills. Something that you want to be proud of sharing with people.
On the home front, I feel like I am afraid of people coming over to my house because I keep it so messy. I don't like the afraid feeling. I basically don't like anything that makes me feel guilty or incompetent. So, I want to have minimal house keeping done at house so I am not scared of people showing up at my house and finding it smelly/ dirty. I want to maintain a minimum standard of living in the house for the kido. Basic Cleanliness is the only thing that is important for the house. I should keep things in order so I can tell kido to maintain that order and standard. Fancy stuff comes after the basics.
I feel positive, I feel braking out of depression, and I feel a new horizon lighting up and lets keep moving towards that goal. More power to me. :D
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