Capabilities

How much am I really capable of? What can I do? WHat can;t I do? What I want to do?
I want to do a lot. But seems like I dont have the energy or the tenacity to finish or follow through. I dump it on people to finish the job. Always, often, every time.

I always seek fulfillment, thrill, for the next thing. Am I addicted? Yes. But there are that kind of people in the world. The starters, the pathfinders. They start ideas, projects, industries, then leave it on people who are executors, finishers to finish. How often do you see one person doing all of the work? Maybe small tasks. Yes. But big things need different people with different aptitude at different stage of progression.

Yes, my house is a mess. I am not really doing a decent or fair job as a mother. Abboy is very neglected right now. Should I not have had a child? It was a choice. It was fun. But now I am trying to leave it behind. And I cannot. I have brought him in this world. I should take care of him properly. He is my responsibility until he can be on his own. This was the project. It is not the time to leave him behind yet. This is your biggest project. Focus here. Dedicate yourself here. He is so wonderful.